Monday, January 12, 2009

Rationalizing Racism

I was really proud of the title for this post when I posted on my class' forum earlier today so I decided to use it. No, I don't actually want to rationalize racism. But I read a couple articles about how and why people did it in the past (and still do today).

On that note, my classes this term are a lot better than last term! I felt a little useless last term, to be honest. The only thing I felt I was really fulfilling was tutoring this High School senior in Calc. But this term all my classes have made me feel like I'm talking about pressing and deep issues that engage me personally and professionally. It's enough for now, at least, to stave off the depression that usually comes with Winter Term and the lack of sunlight. We'll see how long it lasts. It also helps that I'm taking a fitness class and getting more exercise than I'm used to.

Last week was so stressful for me. I think part of it was unpreparedness to be back at school. Part of it was a busy schedule, but also partly my stress level was already through the roof when I left for school. I think the thing that drains me the most is when I have a lot to do but it's spread out over a long period of time. And the amount of things/people I had to commit to the last week was just overwhelming. Don't get me wrong, I loved break this year. I did not want to leave. I felt rushed and bitter. But, like I said, things are looking up for now.

Looking back on it, I don't think I ever could have predicted being so interested in racism, poverty and other social issues in our country. Growing up I always felt a little scared whenever someone brought up those kind of topics… I guess I was terrified of offending someone by sayin the wrong thing. But now I just can't stop talking about it! I swear to never use my powers for evil.